"Je rêvais d'un autre monde..."
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greenie_breizhI'm quite impressed by university. I just got my grade transcript, and we can sign up for next year early July on the web. Yay simplicity.
Today we had a shorter day at the seminar, which was good, and I just napped for an hour which I really needed. Tomorrow we only have a half-day there as a closure to the seminar, with the Polish country presentation, and then Saturday is Pride. The two Maltese guys, Paul and Chris, are sleeping over, along with my brother, and I'm "squee!" about doing Pride with him and all the Europeans. I'm so getting a Polish t-shirt (they say "Europa = tolerancja")!
On Wednesday the radio show went all right, it was very short so also very superficial, but not like I could do anything about it! It was kinda weird that they said "coming out" was "a party" where you tell your friends and family that you're gay. Er, a party? I didn't have a party! I didn't get balloons!
On Tuesday, my workshop went way better than anything I could have hoped for. People came up with some many questions to work on, I couldn't believe it. Then groups had really interesting discussions and the debriefing with everyone was also fascinating, to see what everybody had to add and everything. It just felt successful, if a bit long. Good thing the woman from the Youth programme was here to watch while we were doing that workshop! Definitely gave her the right impression. Then we had the French presentation which went well and they were very intreested in our school debates, which I was as usual more than happy to talk about. Very encouraging.
Yesterday we had a workshop where groups had to make up a little sketch or scene based on an object they picked up (were chosen : an apron, a blonde wig, a wedding invitation and a soccer ball). Chris, one of the Polish guys, really wanted to work with the wig, so his group got it and he put it on right away. Everybody was joking and laughing around at first but then they started really working on their project and Chris still had the wig on, and there was a point where he looked - very real with it. Like it was actually part of him to be wearing that wig. It was almost touching. I tried to get some B&W shots of him looking thoughtful and then laughing, and I really hope they come out right and can express what he looked like with it (and not be funny pictures of a guy wearing a wig).
One of the scenes acted out later as a result of this workshop was a son whose mother had found gay magazines in his room. Paul was the gay son and Dominik, the other Polish guy, was the mom, and it started out as kinda funny as Paul denied knowing he owned those magazine ("Oh, they're gay magazines? Really? I hadn't noticed."), but Dominik was very serious as the mother. He started asking Paul, "Paul, are you gay?" and at first Paul was like, "er, well, y'know, it's kind of a difficult question", and Dominik repeated, "Are you gay?" and after a couple of times Paul got to "Yeah, yeah, I think I am", but Dominik kept asking, til Paul got really assertive, but Dominik kept going, "Are you gay?", and even though Paul couldn't keep a straight face, Dominik totally did, there was this sort of - despair, almost, in his voice, so truly perfect for this mom who just wants to hear, No, mom, I'm not gay. He looked so serious, so affected by Paul who didn't understand what "his mother" wanted to hear, and it felt very intense to me, how so very sad and simple it was, and when Paul finally got it and said softly, giving up, "I'm not gay", Dominik went, "I thought you weren't", and it was just so amazing, how much the mother needed to hear it and everything she'd just been told she was just denying. It just felt so true, and I swear, that look on Dominik's face - he just enacted it so perfectly. I couldn't get a shot (I was out of film) and anyway I'm not sure it would have transcribed onto film because his voice really mattered too. But he impressed me. I had to wonder if it came from personal experience, one way or another.
When you think about it... it's so very impressive, that Chris and Dominik and all the people from Eastern Europe are here to tell us their tale. When you hear the Romanians talking about the Pride in Bucarest this year, how more policemen attended than actual participants, how they got things threw at them and they kept yelling "We love you" back, like a mantra, as if it could keep them from all the hatred... When you connect everything we hear about the political situation in Poland with individual lives, with love stories, with faces and smiles... You have to admire those people for being happy, for still grabbing a piece of Earth and making it their own, for loving each other despite everything they might hear, everything they might have to hide.
Today we had a shorter day at the seminar, which was good, and I just napped for an hour which I really needed. Tomorrow we only have a half-day there as a closure to the seminar, with the Polish country presentation, and then Saturday is Pride. The two Maltese guys, Paul and Chris, are sleeping over, along with my brother, and I'm "squee!" about doing Pride with him and all the Europeans. I'm so getting a Polish t-shirt (they say "Europa = tolerancja")!
On Wednesday the radio show went all right, it was very short so also very superficial, but not like I could do anything about it! It was kinda weird that they said "coming out" was "a party" where you tell your friends and family that you're gay. Er, a party? I didn't have a party! I didn't get balloons!
On Tuesday, my workshop went way better than anything I could have hoped for. People came up with some many questions to work on, I couldn't believe it. Then groups had really interesting discussions and the debriefing with everyone was also fascinating, to see what everybody had to add and everything. It just felt successful, if a bit long. Good thing the woman from the Youth programme was here to watch while we were doing that workshop! Definitely gave her the right impression. Then we had the French presentation which went well and they were very intreested in our school debates, which I was as usual more than happy to talk about. Very encouraging.
Yesterday we had a workshop where groups had to make up a little sketch or scene based on an object they picked up (were chosen : an apron, a blonde wig, a wedding invitation and a soccer ball). Chris, one of the Polish guys, really wanted to work with the wig, so his group got it and he put it on right away. Everybody was joking and laughing around at first but then they started really working on their project and Chris still had the wig on, and there was a point where he looked - very real with it. Like it was actually part of him to be wearing that wig. It was almost touching. I tried to get some B&W shots of him looking thoughtful and then laughing, and I really hope they come out right and can express what he looked like with it (and not be funny pictures of a guy wearing a wig).
One of the scenes acted out later as a result of this workshop was a son whose mother had found gay magazines in his room. Paul was the gay son and Dominik, the other Polish guy, was the mom, and it started out as kinda funny as Paul denied knowing he owned those magazine ("Oh, they're gay magazines? Really? I hadn't noticed."), but Dominik was very serious as the mother. He started asking Paul, "Paul, are you gay?" and at first Paul was like, "er, well, y'know, it's kind of a difficult question", and Dominik repeated, "Are you gay?" and after a couple of times Paul got to "Yeah, yeah, I think I am", but Dominik kept asking, til Paul got really assertive, but Dominik kept going, "Are you gay?", and even though Paul couldn't keep a straight face, Dominik totally did, there was this sort of - despair, almost, in his voice, so truly perfect for this mom who just wants to hear, No, mom, I'm not gay. He looked so serious, so affected by Paul who didn't understand what "his mother" wanted to hear, and it felt very intense to me, how so very sad and simple it was, and when Paul finally got it and said softly, giving up, "I'm not gay", Dominik went, "I thought you weren't", and it was just so amazing, how much the mother needed to hear it and everything she'd just been told she was just denying. It just felt so true, and I swear, that look on Dominik's face - he just enacted it so perfectly. I couldn't get a shot (I was out of film) and anyway I'm not sure it would have transcribed onto film because his voice really mattered too. But he impressed me. I had to wonder if it came from personal experience, one way or another.
When you think about it... it's so very impressive, that Chris and Dominik and all the people from Eastern Europe are here to tell us their tale. When you hear the Romanians talking about the Pride in Bucarest this year, how more policemen attended than actual participants, how they got things threw at them and they kept yelling "We love you" back, like a mantra, as if it could keep them from all the hatred... When you connect everything we hear about the political situation in Poland with individual lives, with love stories, with faces and smiles... You have to admire those people for being happy, for still grabbing a piece of Earth and making it their own, for loving each other despite everything they might hear, everything they might have to hide.
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Date: 2006-06-22 07:26 pm (UTC)(You are ALWAYS doing something. How do you manage?)
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Date: 2006-06-22 08:31 pm (UTC)(I am DED, that's how I do it. *g* Seriously though, I don't know. I do way too much anyway, but even when I try to cut down on stuff, I can't. :)