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"How far have you gone with a guy/girl?"

I hate the "1st base, 2nd base, 3rd base, all the way" thing. It's like an heterosexist thing without even wanting to be, which might be the worse. On the talk of sex, I wondered about bisexuality against a couple of days ago. It's all right for a straight girl to say, yeah, sometimes I notice cute girls and I think about kissing them for a second. It's like, that doesn't make her gay, of course not. I feel like, being gay, you're much less free to say, yeah, I look at some guys and think they're kissing-material. It's like suddenly you're telling the world, wait, maybe I'm not so gay after all! I don't know. I'm puzzled. The whole issue is that technically then a lot of people are bisexual, but don't choose to identify as such - so are you what you identify with or what you physically feel attracted to? How many boys / girls do you need to find kissable to be "bisexual"? The whole label thing is kind of disturbing. And then everybody gets afraid that bisexual people are going to leave them for the other sex. So what if my significant other breaks up with me to go with a guy? Is it much better she'd break up to go with a girl? I mean first case I can go, "gee, I wasn't giving her what she needed" because I didn't have the "good stuff", but second case I can still go "gee, I wasn't giving her what she needed", but this time it'll be because I just *wasn't good enough*. It wasn't even I didn't have a penis, which I can't help anyway.

The whole rationale behind fear for bisexuals puzzles me. Mostly I think it's too complicated - gay, straight, bi, it somewhat shouldn't matter but it does. It does and it's straight couples everywhere kissing, and it's family issues because you're gay and it's the whole angsty thing to try and figure out whether you want to be kissing girls or guys. Too much to think through. Let things be. Just don't hate the other side, or the middle-ground. We're all playing on the same field in the end. Aren't we?

I want to be cuddling with my girlfriend. Or oddly enough, I want to be talking about gay stuff with a lesbian couple. I just don't get that need to "group" sometimes. It's a silly thing and doesn't make much sense. Because it's not like I want to talk about being in the closet, having homophobic issues with your family, or anything that's strictly gay-related and that you could argue straight don't have to live through. It's not that. I just want to hang out with lesbians, friends of mine, and it'll make me smile just to know they're together. Where does that feeling come from? Why does it feel so strong sometimes? I love my straigh friends, and I love my straight friends in a couple.

So I don't get it really. And I don't like not to get things.

Review of 2004

gakked from stampinground and yodah

( A review of 2004 )

I think I might just re-do this meme on January 3 or something.

Sleeping together? You mean the naked kind of sleeping together?

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

I would rant about sex and putting sexual details on your LJ and lots of cool things but I don't have time honestly. Oh well. Later then.

(no subject)

Are you butch or femme?

ANDROGYNE
Your score placed you in the category of Androgyne. This is the true middle of the road, neither butch nor femme. You may also wish to review Soft Androgyne and Hard Androgyne, the two categories surrounding you. In a ranking across the femme/butch gamut, if 1 is femme and 100 is butch, you fall between 48 and 52 on the scale. For a review of where you fall in the overall population in numbers, refer to this chart. Your group encompasses folks of all types, genders, and orientations, though is not as large a part of the population as the hard and soft androgynes surrounding you.

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You are the best of both worlds, and have absolutely no feeling of being either femme or butch. You see yourself as "you" and that's all that matters. You dislike labels, surprised yourself by even taking this test, and are now laughing as you identify with this definition!

You switch roles fluidly without thinking from nurturing/subordinate to providing/leading as the situation demands. You are often a jack or jill of all trades and master of a few, but not all.

In clothing you go for the practical, not always bothering with the concept of neatness if that interferes with comfort or the time it takes to get dressed. Wrinkles don't drive you crazy, though you do prefer to keep reasonably up to date in your style, without going to any extreme in it.

You are shy in many ways, being intimidated by overt aggression as well as complete silence in a conversation. You tend to babble to fill silent space and clam up when confronted.

Odds are good astrologically that you are a Libra, Pisces, Gemini, or Aquarius.

You're willing to try anything once as long as it does not pose a risk to you. You're also good at doing just about any job, as long as you find a way to get trained for it. Physically, you're average in fitness, not being overly concerned about being either "curvy" or "chisled". If you are female and have some endowments, you wear a bra in public but not at home.

For partners you are comfortable with all types, for you are a peacemaker and changeling at heart, changing yourself to fit the situation and avoid hostility. You aren't a doormat, though, and do express your opionions.


That was an interesting test to take :-p Doesn't exactly get my atrological sign though.

On a totally different note, I've gotten a fair amount of work done today so I'm happy with myself. I've deserved to try and hang out with fellow gay youth. :-p

MAG meeting

Librarians ROCK MY SOCKS. Thank you to the ALA for saying this - it's blatant, but apparently it has some trouble getting through some people's minds. Gee. I so need to be a librarian. Can you be a politician, a librarian, a teacher and an activist all at once ?

Had a lovely evening tonight at the MAG. We watched Du ska nog se att det går över, internationally known as Don't worry, it will probably pass. It was nice, though uneven - one of the girls, My, totally looked like a mix between my friend Julia and scarletsky21, therefore lovely. The third one, Natalie, completely reminded me of Violette for a few takes where she was facing the camera with her hair loose.

Anyway, mostly it was nice to meet people. There were two couples there at first, both of which looked like cuteness incarnated. I'll probably talk about this more tomorrow. One of the girls, Pauline, had the best. look. ever. With short (but not too much) hair all spiked, it looked ever so good. I heart her and her girlfriend. Hopefully I'll be able to go there some more in the next couple of weeks and then I'll apply to be a "receptionist", which is really the person welcoming new people who show up and talking to them and making them feel at ease. I'd love to help that way. I like the people there so far, so it's a definite plus.

On that note, I'm off to dream about my amazing fan_elune who'll be here in 15 days and whom I can't wait to hug and kiss and snuggle to.